Wednesday, January 31, 2024

2024

 So much has changed since I started this blog. As a country, we are failing; as a people, it is even worse. There is so much hate, women being harmed and in abusive relationships. Many are afraid to be alone, so we settle for less than. Our friendships are the same. We want people to put up with our foolishness, and we blame everything on others. We gossip and talk about others, but how dare you say anything about what I do. I am older today; wow, so much older. I still desire to help others, but I've learned to say less and observe more. Let's remember to speak truth to power and not put up with others' lack of respect. There is so much I want to say. I will come back later. I love you. 

Tuesday, October 25, 2022

The gun and the bullet

 My heart aches; I miss you so much. If my love could have given you life, you would live forever. I know you are at peace now. Being selfish, I waited for you to return. Rest Well, baby. Until we meet again. You were loved and YOU were love. 

Wednesday, April 29, 2015

Why beat innocent people..I'm going to bed. I leave you with this!!!! People moving out People movin' in Why, because of the color of their skin Run, run, run, but you sho' can't hide An eye for an eye A tooth for a tooth Vote for me, and I'll set you free Rap on brother, rap on Well, the only person talkin' 'Bout love thy brother is the preacher And it seems, Nobody is interested in learnin' But the teacher Segregation, determination, demonstration, Integration, aggravation, Humiliation, obligation to our nation Ball of Confusion That's what the world is today The sale of pills are at an all time high Young folks walk around with Their heads in the sky Cities aflame in the summer time And, the beat goes on Air pollution, revolution, gun control, Sound of soul Shootin' rockets to the moon Kids growin' up too soon Politicians say more taxes will Solve everything And the band played on So round 'n' round 'n' round we go Where the world's headed, nobody knows Just a Ball of Confusion Oh yea, that's what the wold is today Fear in the air, tension everywhere Unemployment rising fast, The Beatles' new record's a gas And the only safe place to live is On an indian reservation And the band played on Eve of destruction, tax deduction City inspectors, bill collectors Mod clothes in demand, Population out of hand Suicide, too many bills, hippies movin' To the hills People all over the world, are shoutin' End the war And the band played on

Friday, September 26, 2014

Glory glory, hallelujah since I laid my burden down. I can hear mom sing that song even though I had not heard her voice in years. How I miss you mother (she would say mother what lol every time). I remember the day so vividly. It was a beautiful sun shiny day. I was cleaning the liter box. My uncle called I missed the first call but he called back he said I needed to get there it was a code blue. I often have conversations with God and quickly the Holy spirit started ministering to me. My mom was a fighter but i knew she was tired. My mom was very scary, so I had been reading the Bible to her, playing gospel music and praying with her. I watched her as she looked out the window fearing what we knew was inevitable I would say just call on the name of Jesus you can do that right she would nod yes. I couldn't understand why I left my job when I did. I was not ready financially ...my 401k was really a 401 may......but this moment as I rushed to the hospital and God spoke again I am your source. I put out a 911 to you guys asking for prayer. My daughter wanted me to drive faster, but God said take your time. As I arrived they were working on her, her body coming up off the bed with every shock. I stood there but not really being there, my mind flooded with thoughts.....I shouted no screamed I TRUST YOU......my baby was, hysterical and my uncle stoic .....he loved his sister. I think he saw her everyday. My heart was heavy for our family. It would be hours before they pronounced her dead......but God kept ministering to me. I knew. Be strong Barbara, that was my mom speaking. . Remember all the things you spoke to me. I trusted God and I was standing on my faith. He has not failed me yet. I miss my mother so much . The dynamics of this family forever changed.....realizing today that she was the only reason we all really came together. I made her a promise and that I will keep. I miss you mommy!

Tuesday, September 23, 2014

The world didn't give it to me. ..........I've fought all my life, my best friend bullied me and was jealous......so I'm used to haters. But, please believe please, I'm not a little girl anymore. I make a conscious effort to be who I am. I'm not going to shrink so you can appear large. I have genuine love for all people. I'm an equal opportunity lover of people and life. If I can't help you, surely I won't hurt you. Your hate elevates..me....I see you....soon it will alleviate....you Praying for you and praying for me too.can

Sunday, August 31, 2014

God, I thank you for your awesome presence in my life. I thank you for all that you take me through, the fact that you are with me makes it all good. Bless your Holy Name. Thank you for safe travels and return https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YRtQLGLCRyM

Sunday, August 10, 2014

LIVE YOUR BEST LIFE!

I PRAY ALL IS WELL WITH EVERYONE WHO READS THIS POST. TODAY IS THE BEST DAY OF THE REST OF YOUR LIFE. EVERYDAY THIS WEEK I HAVE HEARD THAT SOMEONE HAS PASSED. YOUNG, AND OLD IT SADDENS MY SPIRIT EACH TIME. TODAY, I WORE MY GOOD UNDER GARMENTS JUST BECAUSE LOL., I TOOK A DRINK OUT OF MY FAVORITE CUP THAT I SAVE FOR SPECIAL OCCASIONS AND I WENT TO THE STORE AGAIN, JUST BECAUSE I'M GROWN AND I CAN. LIFE IS SHORT, LIVE YOUR BEST LIFE TODAY. DON'T WAIT UNTIL YOU ........(YOU FEEL IN THE BLANKS). FOR ME IT IS LOSE WEIGHT, START EXERCISING, MOVE TO FLORDIA (SELL MY HOUSE DID THAT AND OH BOY). I AM TRUSTING AN BELIEVING GOD THAT ALTHOUGH I AM NOT WHERE I WANT TO BE I AM EXACTLY WHERE I AM SUPPOSE TO BE. I AM HAPPPY WITH BARBARA DEAN FRANKLIN TODAY WITH ALL MY IMPERFECTIONS. I HEAR GOD SAY DONT GIVE UP BECAUSE I WILL NEVER GIVE UP ON YOU. TODAY REACH AND SHARE LOVE WITH SOMEONE. EVERYONE IS GOING THROUGH SOMETHING SO REACH DOWN AND LIFT SOMEONE UP. TOMORROW IT MAY BE YOU WHO NEEDS THE LIFT. I LOVE YOU. YOU UNDERSTAND? OKAY! Tune in Wednesday our show we will talk to Ronnell Carr of the Diabetes association. www.wecnpnetwork.com