LIFE AFTER THE CRACK OF DAWN

I want to write a book. I have talked about it for a while. Well, here are a few lines that I have penned. Tell me what you think. Perhaps you've already figured out the name of it. LIFE AFTER THE CRACK OF DAWN!

Faith is the substance of things hoped for the evidence of things not seen. Hebrews 11:1

You must have faith to fight the demons of addictions.

There is life after crack.

All of my life I’ve struggled with something, sexual abuse, domestic violence, no self esteem, and a crack addiction. What did I do to deserve this life? God will bring you through anything he brings to you. I was afraid early in life, the sexual abuse made me fearful. Afraid to live, and afraid to die. Being afraid kept me close to God, and I learned to pray and have faith at the early age of 5 when the sexual abuse started.

I always believed I operated under the radar. Never succeeding at anything, wanting success, but it always seemed to avoid me. I was a happy child outwardly, but on the inside there was always a conflict. All I ever really wanted was to be loved, and because of that I loved everybody surely someone would return this love to me and I would be happy.  This is the story of my life; the names have been changed to protect the innocent.  This book is a first; I am calling it a Fictography.  Some material is made up, and many things are true.

                                                           CHAPTER 1

She knew what he wanted but she had to play the game. Tina and Brandon had dated for about six years, and this was always the scene. Tina was truly in love with Brandon, but Brandon was a player. Let’s go back to when they first met. Tina was a lonely child who grew to be a lonely woman.  She was always the life of the party. “Hey hey hey” shouts Tina as she enters  the Dynasty Lounge. Marvin Gaye’s Mercy Mercy Me plays in the background. Everyone on the floor is grinding, and Tina wants to be a part of the action. She scans the crowd Brandon Douglas 6”2 220 pounds a six pack and a sandwich. He was fine, and Tina had to have him.

Tina was raised by her mother; she met her dad when she was 38 years old.  She lived with her mother and sister in an upstairs flat. Her great-aunt and an older male cousin who became her father figure lived downstairs. Uncle Herbert is what she affectionately called her cousin; he taught her a lot. He was always good to her and she loved him, and he loved her as well. Herbert did not have children of his own, so Tina was like his daughter. He taught her how to count, to say grace and to pray. Before Tina was in school she was sexually abused by an old man who lived down the street from her. She remembers being in his basement it smelled old and Mr. Moe smelled even older. Tina was a thumb sucker and Mr. Moe wanted Tina to take the thing out of his zipper

ENOUGH FOR NOW SO......WHAT SAY YOU KEEP WRITING OR KEEP MY DAY JOB?

NOW IS THE TIME FOR ALL GOOD WOMEN TO COME AND SUPPORT GOOD WOMEN!

Greetings good people,

I pray all is well today. As I sit here wishing I had a cup of coffee a few things come to my mind. Wait! Let me get a cup of tea. Why can't we celebrate each other? I am talking about women. Why do we continue to hold each other down? If I say I am a believer of good things,why do I wish bad things on my sister? Why do I talk about her instead of talking to her? Why do I smile in her face, listen to her complaints and then think "oh how happy I am that she is going through"? Why do we ask for advice, or talk to our friends and then disregard their suggestions? Why don't women who have overcome help women that need to come over? I'm just saying. It is so much hateration going on, and much more ignorance. WE are a source that can change the world. WE can come together and do great things. If WE see where someone is choosing the wrong paths WE should help, and not hurt.

I love life today, when I was young I acted young and foolish. Today I am old (well, I am older lawd have mercy did I say I was old) and much wiser. Wherever I go I choose to leave love. I love even when it hurts. If you do me wrong, I still love you. If you talk about me, I still love you. I come to realize that you hurting me is only because you are hurt. It is one thing to hurt someone when you are not aware of what you are doing. But, when you purposely seek to hurt, damage, assassinate someone YOU have a problem. I have worked for 35 years with the same company. I have seen women in power annihilate women trying to rise up. Instead of mentoring and helping them achieve their greatness they have plotted to destroy their dreams. Why?

When we help others we are helping ourselves, YOU cannot take my job I can only give it away. Now is the time for all good women to come together and support good women. WE must stop coming up against each other and get together and snatch back our places and promises of authority from the evil ones. My sisters what are you dealing with today that keeps you from being all that you can be. Search your hearts are you being real with yourself? Are you? Do you really love life? If you do- you love others, and your purpose should be to help someone. What about our young girls? If we are not a role model to them showing them how to LIVE they grow up carrying bitterness. They lack self esteem, they think they need a man to make them happy. They see US today sleeping with someones man, backstabbing, and sometimes being so arrogant/EVIL that they must be so confused. They see us doing anything to say we have a man, and some of the men we have.....LAWD have mercy. Now, please understand there are good men in this world. I am not man bashing. But, I'm just saying.

When you are doing what you do today. Do it for the glory of God. Do it for the future generation. Do it for someone other than yourself. Each one of us ARE put on this earth for a purpose. It is not all about you. You are assigned to someone. Look around and be a blessing. Now, blessings are not always money. But, I ain't gone complain if that is how you help me.

I'm just saying. Can we BE REAL!

Who loves ya!

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WOMEN EMPOWERED CROSS N PATHS!

Women Empowered Cross N Paths (WE)-Women WE are empowered. WE must uplift and encourage each other to affect change in this world. WE must be a role model to our young women to inspire them to grow, to mature, to be healthy, and successful women. WE are no longer bound or broken by our past. When WE cross paths, WE share a smile, a hug, resources, and our testimony. WE uplift, encourage, and strengthen each other, because when our paths cross WE are no longer standing alone, but we are like A cord intertwined that cannot be  broken. WE are a network of women helping the world become a better place, and WE realize that it starts with us. WE are Women Empowered Cross N Paths- A movement on the move!

HOW CAN WE HELP EACH OTHER. LET'S SHARE OUR STORIES. LET'S HELP OUR YOUNG WOMEN.

Real talk. I know someone who just moved hundreds of miles to another city to be with a man who was recently released from jail for murder. Who does that and why? This is our first blog conversation. Your thoughts.

This will be a place to be real! Who loves ya! WE do!