NO, REALLY THERE IS LIFE AFTER CRACK! HOW SWEET IT IS!

I JUST REALIZED THAT TOMORROW 12-23-11 WILL BE 17 YEARS FREE OF CRACK COCAINE. YOU MAY WANNA KNOW WHY I AM ALWAYS THANKING AND PRAISING THE LORD BECAUSE HE KEEP ME WHEN I COULDA BEEN DEAD SLEEPING IN MY GRAVE. WHEN MANY OF MY FRIENDS HAVE GONE ON OR ARE OUT STILL TRYING TO BE PENNY NICKLE SLICK. HE SAW FIT TO KEEP A WRETCH LIKE ME. HE DELIVERED ME ON MY LIVING ROOM FLOOR AND SOMEBODY NEEDS TO KNOW H...E CAN DO IT FOR YOU.
HE CONTINUES TO GIVE ME FAVOR, AND I AM NOT ASHAMED TODAY TO TELL OTHERS ABOUT WHAT I HAVE BEEN THROUGH SEE HE TURNED MY TEST INTO A TESTIMONY. HE USED MY COUSIN JUANITA GAVIN (GOD REST HER SOUL) TO SAVE ME. SEE WHEN I CALLED MY PASTOR AT THE TIME HE WAS ON VACATION AND I GOT HIS VOICE MAIL. BUT MY COUSIN CAME RUNNIN AND SHE KNEW NOTHING ABOUT MY ADDICTION AND JUST A LITTLE ABOUT THE LORD, BUT SHE WAS EQUIPPED FOR WHAT GOD NEEDED HER TO DO. I WAS ABOUT TO TAKE MY LIFE, I RECEIVED HIS LOVE ON THAT DAY AND MY LIFE HAS NEVER BEEN THE SAME
I AM NOT SAYING THAT I HAVE NOT BEEN THROUGH BUT HE WALKS WITH ME AND TALKS WITH ME AND TELLS ME I AM HIS OWN.
I AM NOT PERFECT NOR SIN LESS BUT I SURE SIN LESS THAN I USED TO. HALLELUJAH THANK YOU LORD,

DON'T JUDGE ME YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT I BEEN THROUGH! WHEN I STAND FOR AND WITH YOU IT IS BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN THROUGH SOME THINGS. I SMELL A LITTLE SMOKEY BUT I DID NOT BURN. I HAVE SEEN THE GOODNESS OF THE LORD.

OKAY I JUST HAD TO TELL SOMEBODY! IT IS NOT TO LATE FOR YOU, RIGHT WHERE YOU ARE HE LOVES YOU. WHILE I WAS SMOKING I WAS ASKING GOD TO HELP ME. ASK HIM TO HELP YOU TODAY. WATCH HIM SHOW UP. HE IS GREATER THAN ANY SITUATION THAT YOU ARE GOING THROUGH! KEY WORD.........GOING THROUGH NOT STAYING THERE

ACTING UP! RANDOM THOUGHTS! OR MAYBE NOT!

When I was young, I always wanted to be an actor. I thought that would be my road to success. Today I realize I am an actor in this thing called life. I have held many roles, and actually have won many awards. I have had shows cancelled, and some renewed. When I look at my life, it is one continuous movie. I now realize I am the STAR of my movie. I have given away the lead role far more than I have taken the lead, and I am good with that. I am okay with being a part of the cast. Today I know who I am and whose I am. Many things in my life have drawn me closer to God.



I have discovered that many problems have drawn me closer to the Lord. I guess you can say I am acting up. See I am acting up to a greater relationship with him. This relationship is one I have come to rely on. When there is no one for me to talk about my trials and tribulations with after listening and being there for everyone else I lie silently speaking to my friend who always listens. I like acting up. It is making me strong, and better. Acting up has also given me favor. Depending on my acting role, I have been able to help many people. I love acting. Acting has given me wisdom, courage, and character. I am glad God fully understands me. AND THE OSCAR GOES TO...

GOT TO BE THERE!

GOOD MORNING GOOD PEOPLE! OR SHOULD I SAY GREAT MORNING GREAT PEOPLE!

YESTERDAY WAS A WONDERFUL DAY FOR ME AS IS MOST DAYS GOOD OR BAD. IT WAS VERY PEACEFUL UNTIL MY BROTHER AND COUSIN RONNIE CAME OVER BUT WE WILL TALK ABOUT THAT LATER. THIS POOL IS MORE THAN A NOTION, SO I STARTED MY DAY AT MY NEW FAVORITE SPOT B&B POOL. I WENT PICKED UP CLOTHES FROM THE CLEANERS SAT WITH MOM AND MY SISTER FOR A MINUTE THEN ON MY WAY HOME I SEE THIS LADY TRYING TO FLAG A BUS THAT ZOOMED BY HER.

I WATCHED HER MOUTH THE WORDS OF FRUSTRATION. AS I SAT WAITING ON HER TO CROSS THE STREET (YOU COULD TELL SHE WAS HAVING ISSUES) I KNEW INSTANTLY THAT I WAS GOING TO PICK HER UP AND TAKE HER WHERE SHE NEEDED TO GO. I PULLED UP TO HER AND SAY WHERE YOU GOING GET IN. SHE SAYS I DON'T HAVE ANY MONEY (KINDA WITH AN ATTITUDE) I SAY I DID NOT ASK YOU FOR ANY MONEY I ASKED YOU WERE YOU WERE GOING. SHE IS GOING TO JOY ROAD, I SAY THAT IS EXACTLY WHERE I AM GOING. I NEEDED TO VISIT AN ELDERLY FRIEND IN A NURSING HOME ON JOY ROAD SO THIS WAS PERFECT.

SHE LIVED RIGHT ACROSS THE STREET. WE HAD REALLY GOOD CONVERSATION. SHE SHARED SHE HAD JUST WALKED FROM SCHAEFER VISITING HER BROTHER IN THE HOSPITAL (I PICKED HER UP AT GREENFIELD AND OUTER DRIVE) SHE JUST HAD KNEE REPLACEMENT SURGERY SO SHE WAS IN PAIN. WE THANKED AND PRAISED GOD ON OUR RIDE HOME. SHE WAS AMAZED AT MY TRUCK (SHE WAS LOOKING AT MY PICTURES ON THE SCREEN IN THE TRUCK). WE TALKED ABOUT HER SON, THE GOODNESS OF GOD AND HOW MUCH SHE APPRECIATED ME PICKING HER UP. HER MOM IS CARING FOR HER 98 YEAR OLD AUNT, AND SHE TALKED ABOUT HER MOTHER'S HEART.

THIS MORNING AS I WAS UP WATERING THE GRASS EARLY BEFORE ANYONE WAS OUT I THOUGHT OF CHERYL, AND WONDERED WHY WE DON'T TAKE THE TIME AND REALLY HELP PEOPLE ANYMORE. MANY PEOPLE ARE GOING THROUGH THINGS BUT THEY WON'T SHARE BECAUSE WE HAVE BECOME SO OPINIONATED. I LEFT CHERYL AND WENT TO THE NURSING HOME TO VISIT NOLLIE. WE HAD A GOOD TIME, SHE IS NOT THE NOLLIE I REMEMBER BUT THERE WERE MOMENTS THAT NOLLIE APPEARED LIKE WHEN SHE ASKED ME ....YOU WORK FROM HOME LIVE AROUND THE CORNER AND YOU JUST GETTING HERE? WE LAUGHED. OK NOLLIE, I PROMISE I WILL DO BETTER.

I TRY EVERYDAY TO BE THE BEST PERSON THAT I CAN. I TRY HARD TO BE A GOOD FRIEND, BEING THERE WHEN NEEDED. WHAT ARE YOU DOING TODAY? ARE YOU BEING THERE FOR SOMEONE OTHER THAN YOURSELF? THINK ON THESE THINGS TODAY.

WHO IS DEPENDING ON YOU AND YOU HAVE NOT COME THROUGH? WHAT COMMITMENT HAVE YOU MADE AND NEVER EVEN ATTEMPTED TO COMPLETE IT?

WOMEN EMPOWERED CROSS N PATHS IS NOT JUST A VISION TO ME. IT IS MY LIFE I LIVE IT EVERY DAY.

I THANK GOD THAT OUR PATHS CROSSED. I PRAY THAT YOU ARE BLESSED COMING IN AND BLESSED GOING OUT.  I PRAY THAT GOD WRAPS HIS ARMS AROUND EACH OF YOU AND COVER YOU IN ALL AREAS OF YOUR LIFE. I HOPE HE OPENS YOUR EYES AND EARS OF UNDERSTANDING IN AREAS THAT YOU NEED TO IMPROVE. GOD WILL NOT TELL ANYBODY ANYTHING ABOUT YOU BEFORE HE TELLS YOU. WHAT IS HE SAYING TO YOU TODAY?  ONE THING I KNOW ABOUT GOD IN MY LIFE.....HE'S GOT TO BE THERE!

WHO LOVES YA! WE DO

NOW IS THE TIME!!!! REALLY

AS I SIT OUTBACK(I TOLD YOU ALREADY NOT THE STEAKHOUSE) AND LISTEN TO THE WIND BLOW, SEEING THE TREES BEND BACK AND FORTH I AM THINKING OF RELATIONSHIPS OLD AND NEW. MY SISTER N LAW JUST LEFT AND WE HAD A REALLY GOOD CONVERSATION. IT IS AMAZING TO ME HOW THINGS ARE REALLY THE SAME. SAME SITUATION DIFFERENT PEOPLE, REALLY AMAZING. WHY COME.....YEP I SAID WHY COME- BUT YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN RIGHT? WHY IS IT THAT WE (THIS IS ABOUT MY SISTERS RIGHT NOW) CONTINUE TO HATE ON EACH OTHER? MY SISTER AND I HAVE A REALLY GOOD RELATIONSHIP SHE IS MY SISTER AND BLOOD IS THICKER THAN WATER. BUT, MANY SISTERS HAVE A LOVE HATE RELATIONSHIP, MOTHER'S AND DAUGHTERS, GIRLFRIENDS. WHAT IS UP WITH THAT?

I HAVE SAT BACK AND MADE KEEN OBSERVATIONS REGARDING THIS. WHAT I FOUND IS WE NEED TO GET IT TOGETHER. I AM MAKING EVERY EFFORT TO WATCH HOW I TREAT PEOPLE, WHAT I SAY, AND HOW I REACT TO CERTAIN CIRCUMSTANCES. WE ARE HURTING EACH OTHER BY OUR WORDS, AND ACTIONS. I LISTENED TO MY SISTER N LAW TALK ABOUT HER FAMILY AND HOW THEY ARE MISTREATING HER. IT IS SAD, GOOD PEOPLE ARE BEING HURT BY HURTING PEOPLE.

WOMEN EMPOWERED CROSS N PATHS HELD A MEETING SATURDAY, AND WE DISCUSSED THIS. IT WAS AMAZING HOW MANY OF US HAD THE SAME STORY. SOME WOMAN WITH ISSUES MAKING IT HARD FOR ANOTHER. WE MUST DO BETTER. WE WANT TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE, WE WANT OTHERS TO KNOW THAT IT IS SO MUCH BETTER TO GIVE LOVE THAN HURT AND PAIN. IT WILL MAKE THINGS A LOT BETTER FOR YOU AS WELL AS OTHERS. TRY IT, YOU MIGHT LIKE IT.

I HAVE LIVED THIS LIFE FOR MANY YEARS AND I HAVE COME TO REALIZE THE IMPORTANCE OF LOVING OTHERS. I DON'T PUT MY MOUTH ON OTHERS, I DON'T LOOK FOR OTHERS SHORTCOMING. I LOVE TO UPLIFT, INSPIRE AND ENCOURAGE AND BECAUSE IT IS MY WAY OF LIFE MY LIFE IS GOOD. NO, REALLY LIKE TONY THE TIGER MY LIFE IS G-R-E-A-T!

LADIES, LOOK AT YOUR LIFE IF. YOU ARE GOING THROUGH SOMETHING, OR MORE IMPORTANT IF YOU ARE CAUSING OTHERS TO GO THROUGH*** STOP***. WHAT YOU PUT OUT......REALLY IS WHAT YOU GET BACK. TAKE THE TIME TO MAKE A CHANGE. YOU NEED TO TALK TO SOMEONE CALL WE (WOMEN EMPOWERED CROSS N PATHS). OUR MISSION IS TO UPLIFT, ENCOURAGE, MOTIVATE AND INSPIRE.

IS THERE ANYONE WILLING TO ADMIT THAT THEY NEED TO MAKE A CHANGE? I HAD TO, AND I AM SO HAPPY I DID. MY LIFE IS SO MUCH BETTER TODAY. I SAID BETTER NOT PERFECT. THERE ARE STILL HATERS AND LIKE JILL SCOTT I SAY HATE ON HATERS. THERE ARE STILL LIARS AND I LET THEM LIE, CHEATERS I LET THEM CHEAT. I AM A GROWN WOMAN I CHOSE TO BE HAPPY TODAY. I HAVE SUFFERED FROM SEXUAL ABUSE, DOMESTIC VIOLENCE AND A CRACK ADDICTION. YOU CANNOT KEEP A GOOD WOMAN DOWN. NO YOU CAN'T.

IT IS REALLY TIME FOR THE SISTERHOOD TO REACH OUT AND STAND STRONG.
WHO LOVES YA! WE DO!

WE NEED TO TALK!!!!!: IT IS NEVER TOO LATE, OR IS IT?

WE NEED TO TALK!!!!!: IT IS NEVER TOO LATE, OR IS IT?

IT IS NEVER TOO LATE, OR IS IT?

As I sit here listening to the rain drops, and pondering the Weather here in Michigan I wonder what state we are in. Not location state; Wars and rumors of Wars. Natural disasters and seasons change. What concerns me more than anything is the fact that our people continue to perish for lack of knowledge.

My neighbor, my daughters' friend, the mother of 3 little black babies, a young lady 24 years of age lost her life. A senseless killing why? We may never know. She was in an abusive relationship with this guy. She was so faithful to him. He beat her, cheated on her, disrespected her, and allowed the women he brought into their lives to do the same thing. Did she ever think she would be gone today? Did she say I have time to get my life together?

My people who are called by my name. Lord help us all. I cry for those babies, for her mother, for my daughters, for myself and for each of you. WE must come together. WE must make a change. WE must take the time to help the lost, left out and lonely. We must find ways to communicate, develop strategies,be willing to improvise, and spread love if we do not want to continue seeing genocides.

It is never too late, or is it? OXI, IT'S NEVER TOO LATE. EACH NEW DAY, NEW GRACE AND MERCY!

Who loves ya! WE do!

GOD IS ON THE MOVE!

Today I am thanking God for his awesome Grace and his Mercy. He has been faithful to me, and is always faithful to his WORD. God is not a man that he should lie. I have been on purpose, and observing many things since November. Awesome, awesome, and awesome. Here are a few things that God has said and showed me. He is swiftly doing a GREAT thing in my life. Not because I am so good, not because I deserve it JUST because he loves me. He has seen my love for him and for others and said I want you to have my heart, and my mind and see things as I see it but you will not be able to process it through your emotions and that has been so true.

What I have learned on this journey is this. Lord, I am sorry for ever taking you for granted, for treating you like some genie in a bottle. For always telling you what I need, what I want and never, EVER asking you what I can do for you. It is amazing when we are going through we think we are the only ones that are going through. Well, it is unacceptable to always be on the receiving end of GRACE, and never stopping to really realize.....it is not all about you. LOOK at Jesus on the cross, look at what they did to him, WHO are we with our messed up, low down, no good wretched selves. Thank you Lord for correction, for chastisement, and for forgiveness. I have come to realize that forgiveness does not always mean reconciliation or association (thanks Carrie), but it means casting our cares on you because you care for us. So, Lord forgive those who have despite fully used me when all I tried to do was help. Forgive those who continue to talk about me cause they don't understand my story. Forgive those who don't understand that I love you more than I love anything or anybody. Forgive them for they know not what they do.

Daddy, I am excited about what you are doing. The possibilities are endless. Barbara with Boldness not afraid to get what God has for me, not afraid to hear what God has to say. I love because he first loved me, I call because he has put it on my heart, I help because he has spoke to me and said, give so and so, and say thus said. I look at Jesus on the cross and  tonight I am saying "Lord what can I do for you?"

Who loves ya!

WE do!

TODAY IS A GREAT DAY! ASK ME WHY?

TODAY IS A GREAT DAY BECAUSE I HAVE AN OPPORTUNITY TO SHARE IT WITH YOU.
 TO EVERYONE READING THIS POST I LOVE YOU. WE HAVE A CHANCE FOR A DO OVER TODAY. LET GO OF YESTERDAY AND DO NOT THINK ABOUT TOMORROW BUT RIGHT NOW THANK GOD FOR THIS MOMENT. THANK YOU LORD FOR THE SUN, FOR THE SON. THAT YOU LORD FOR YOUR GRACE, YOUR MERCY, YOUR PEACE AND YOUR OMNIPOTENT PRESENCE.

 GOD HAS BEEN BETTER THAN GOOD TO ME ALL OF MY LIFE. MY EX SAID SOMETHINGS TO ME TODAY THAT MADE ME SAY WOW! HE NEVER TALKED LIKE THIS WHEN WE WERE TOGETHER, BUT HE SAID BECAUSE OF YOU THE WOMAN YOU ARE AND ALL THE THINGS YOU MEANT AND MEAN TO ME I THANK GOD FOR YOU AND EACH DAY I TRY TO BE BETTER. (SOMEBODY TOOK OVER HIS BODY) SERIOUSLY, HE WILL ALWAYS JUST BE AN EX, BUT EVERYTHING THAT I WENT THROUGH WITH HIM AT THAT MOMENT, IT WAS WORTH HEARING THOSE WORDS.

SOMETIMES WE NEVER KNOW WHILE GOING THROUGH; THE IMPACT WE WILL LATER HAVE ON SOMEONES LIFE. I AM THANKING GOD FOR THE POSITIVE. I AM TYPING IN CAPS BECAUSE I AM SHOUTING. WAKE EVERYBODY!

IT IS TIME THAT WE REMEMBER WHO AND WHOSE WE ARE TAKE BACK OUR JOY, OUR HAPPINESS. TODAY IS A GREAT DAY! NOT ONLY DID I WAKE UP BUT ALSO I WAS ABLE TO GET UP.

WE NEED TO WORK TOGETHER TO SAVE OUR CITY; I AM GOING TO START A CAMPAIGN SOON. I WILL NEED YOUR SUPPORT. CAN I COUNT ON YOU? NO ONE IS COMING TO SAVE US. WE MUST WORK TOGETHER AS NEVER BEFORE TO BE THE CHANGE WE WANT TO SEE.

I AM GOING TO GET MY HAIR DONE. I FEEL LIKE A PONY TAIL TODAY.

WHO LOVES YA!
WE DO

A LOVELY DAY

GREETINGS MY SISTERS,

TODAY I AM LIKE BILL WITHERS SINGING LOVELY DAY, LOVELY DAY, LOVELY DAY, IT'S A LOVELY DAY. I AM SITTING IN FLORIDA WITH MY GIRL AND HER HUSBAND REFLECTING. IT REMINDS ME OF WHEN WE ALL USED TO LIVE TOGETHER MANY YEARS AGO. GOD HAS BEEN REALLY GOOD TO US. THEY HAVE RETIRED AND MOVED TO FLORIDA AND LIVING THE LIFE THAT THEY DREAMED OF. AS I LOOK BACK OVER MY LIFE I AM SO THANKFUL. EVERY SITUATION HAS PREPARED ME FOR WHERE GOD IS TAKING ME RIGHT NOW. WE GO THROUGH THINGS IN LIFE ON PURPOSE FOR A PURPOSE BUT WE DO NOT REALIZE AT THE TIME WE ARE BEING SETUP FOR GREATNESS. YES, I SAID FOR GREATNESS. IF YOU DO NOT KNOW YOU ARE GREAT.....WHO WILL?

HOW ARE YOU FEELING TODAY? I PRAY THAT IF YOU ARE GOING THROUGH ANYTHING TODAY YOU TAKE THE TIME TO REFLECT. LOOK BACK AT WHERE YOU HAVE COME FROM AND ALL THAT YOU HAVE BEEN THROUGH. I AM SURE YOU ARE BETTER OFF TODAY, AND PERHAPS YOU ARE NOT. MAYBE YOU ARE ON YOUR WAY THROUGH YOUR SITUATION AND NOT ON THE OTHER SIDE OF IT. WHEREVER YOU ARE.......PLEASE BE THANKFUL. ENCOURAGE YOURSELF. LOVE YOURSELF. DO NOT WORRY ABOUT WHAT OTHERS THINK OF YOU. HOWEVER, DO NOT BE SO COCKY THAT YOU NEGLECT TO CARE ABOUT OTHERS.

I AM GETTING TO READY TO GO EAT SEAFOOD I ONLY HAVE ONE MORE DAY TO SPEND WITH MY FRIENDS. IT IS SUCH A BLESSING TO HAVE TRUE FRIENDS. TODAY TAKE THE TIME TO CLEBRATE WHO IS CELEBRATING YOU. DO NOT LET TO MANY ANT(S) INTO YOUR LIFE. AUTOMATIC NEGATIVE THOUGHTS.....

WHO LOVES YA!

DOMESTIC VIOLENCE IS NO JOKE!

My heart goes out to anyone who is suffering from abuse. There are all types of abuse, physical, mental, and sexual. Someone near and dear to me is going through right now. We talked yesterday like we have on many occasions, but this time I saw something in her eyes, heard something in  her voice that is different. See, I have learned to hear what people say and to listen to what they do not say.

This situation is equally perplexing to me because I am also friends with her husband. I do not take sides, I am for what is right. The most important thing to me is that they be happy, together or a part. She asked  me a question that only she can answer and that question was ....HOW DO I GET OUT?

I think she is on the verge of figuring that out. I have never heard that question before (from her). I saw someone yesterday that I had not seen in a long time if ever. I could only tell her what I did when I was going through, but I told her that the answer comes from within. Once she deals with that she will know exactly what to do.

What she is dealing with right now is mental abuse. She is going through the circle of control. He has tried for year to isolate her (he did for a while). He does not believe that she should have any friends only him. It is funny how people can feel that way. Why do they? I pray that they work it out one way or the other.

Life is too short. WE should learn to uplift each other not tear down. If we cannot get along, don't try and hurt me. Just let me go. I have learned not to waste time and tearing others down. I may speak to something that I did not like, but I quickly move on. I remember my friend Harold saying......STOP ME WHEN I START LYING .

 Pick up the phone even when you don't feel like it. Someone may need you. I remember the day I was delivered from my crack addiction. I called someone and they came right over. Saved my life. I also remember when someone I knew called on another friend because they needed someone to be there for them right then. They said I will be there in the morning and that person took their life.

Today and everyday listen to people. Take time to hear what they have to say. YOU never know what someone is going through, but most of the time we are only thinking of ourselves. Today ....think about someone else.

WHO LOVES YA!
WE DO.....

JUST HOLD ON!

Hello! How is everyone doing?  In talking to my sister girls I find that we are all struggling with something, going through something or getting over something. I want to encourage each of you to just hold on!!! It is so unfortunate when I talk to someone and they tell me that they have no one they can depend on, lean on or trust. What is up with that? That is why I so want to start this movement. Women Empowered Cross N Paths. A network of women helping women. You need someone to talk to? Call us. You need some help trying to find information? Call us. Suffering from low self esteem no self esteem? Call us. YOU got it all together.....please call us. WE want you to be a part of our network.

Women in Leadership especially  should mentor and be a role model to our young women today. We are leaving our world to this younger generation WE must help them. I am trying to determine how WE move forward. One thing I am sure of. God has blessed me with an inexhaustible capacity to love (my girl Joann said that about me in a letter of reference in 1995 when I was a Domestic Violence Advocate). I am an encourager. I love people, and I so want to make a difference in this world. WE (women) are so powerful, but we must recognize that. WE can do anything we put our minds to. So many people depend on us, and they always will. WE are the workers, we get things done. WE get the people excited about the mission, and then we execute the plan.

WE are the virtuous woman that they speak of in Proverbs. If you are sick and tired of being sick and tired, then JUST HOLD ON!. Women Empowered Cross N Paths a movement on the move is coming to a place near you SOON!

WHO LOVES YA!
WE DO!

THE IMPORTANCE OF CUSTOMER SERVICE

YESTERDAY I WENT TO THE 6TH PRECINCT IN DETROIT ON WARWICK AND PLYMOUTH TO REGISTER MY GUN. I WALKED IN THE DOOR AND NO ONE ACKNOWLEDGED ME. I WALKED THE COUNTER AND THEY NEVER LOOKED UP. I SAW A BOOK SIGNED MY NAME AND SAT DOWN.

I MADE A FEW OBSERVATIONS AS I SAT SOME YOU JUST HEARD ABOVE. BUT, WHAT I NOTICED IS THAT HERE ARE THREE OFFICERS AT A COMPUTER DOING SOMETHING BUT I CLEARLY DO NOT THINK IT WAS THE BUSINESS AT HAND NOR DO I THINK IT WAS NECESSARY FOR ALL THREE OFFICERS TO BE INVOLVED AT THAT MOMENT. NOW, THERE ARE TWO OTHER PEOPLE WAITING ONE IS BEING ASSISTED AND PERHAPS THE TWO THAT WERE WAITING HAD ALREADY BEEN CARED FOR I WAS NOT SURE AND WAS ONLY CONCERNED ABOUT ME AT THE TIME. ONE OF THE OFFICERS STEPS AWAY FROM THE OTHER TWO AND SITS DOWN AND HAS CONVERSATION WITH THE OFFICER THAT IS ASSISTING SOMEONE. THE OTHER STAYS AT THE TERMINAL AND AFTER A 10-12 MINUTE WAIT HE CALLS MY NAME.

I WALK UP TO THE DESK AND HE ASK WHAT I AM TRYING TO DO, I TELL HIM JUST DROP OFF THIS FORM HE SAYS YOU ARE IN THE WRONG PRECINCT.  HE TELLS ME WHERE I NEED TO GO, THANK YOU. I GET HOME AND I HAVE THIS CONVERSATION WITH MYSELF. SIR, I HAVE WORKED FOR THE TELEPHONE COMPANY FOR 35 YEARS AND ONE THING I GET IS CUSTOMER SERVICE. IF YOU HAD OF ACKNOWLEDGE ME WHEN I WALKED IN THE DOOR. HI HOW CAN I HELP YOU? I WOULD HAVE SAID I AM JUST DROPPING OFF THIS FORM YOU WOULD HAVE IMMEDIATELY REPLIED YOU ARE IN THE WRONG PLACE AND I WOULD HAVE BEEN ON MY WAY.

WELL, ONE HOUR LATER I HEAR THAT SOMEONE WALKS INTO THAT SAME POLICE STATION AND SHOOTS FOUR OFFICERS, NOW I AM PRAYING THAT THEY RECOVER. I AM PRAYING THAT THE DPD TAKES MEASURES THAT WILL KEEP OUR FINE OFFICERS WHO PUT THEIR LIVES ON THE LINE FOR US DAILY SAFE. AGAIN I BELIEVE THAT THE MAN WHO WALKED IN WITH THE GUN PROBABLY WAS NOT ACKNOWLEDGE NO ONE LOOKED UP AT HIM TO SEE HIS DEMEANOR OR TO SAY HOW CAN I HELP YOU? (MAYBE THEY WOULD HAVE NOTICED SOMETHING IN HIS FACE) I THINK IT IS TIME TO GIVE THE OFFICERS SOME TRAINING IN CUSTOMER SERVICE. YOU ARE A PUBLIC SERVANT AND YOU SHOULD BE AWARE OF YOUR PUBLIC. THE IGNORANT MAN THAT CAME IN THERE TO HARM THE OFFICERS HAD A PROBLEM......BUT I DID NOT.

GET OFF YOUR BUT AND MOVE TO WHAT!

Today, I got off my butt and went to church. The message was GET OFF YOUR BIG BUT!  The Pastor was all up in my pew. I thank God for the message today. I am taking my Pastor's message and delivering it in the world according to Barbara.

See, we all must get up off our buts

I would spend more time in the gym....but.

I am gone start tithing more...but.

I know this person is no good for me....but.

I need to stop drinking and smoking....but (I like to drink and smoke). That last statement use to be mine. I still like to have a drink every now and again.

The message today was taken from 2King 5 1-15, anybody going through anything ought to read this scripture. BUT God. NOTHING BUT GOD! That is what we must concentrate on.

I have been dealing with a lot things over the last few weeks, and I promise you everywhere I turn God has provided a word. It could be on Facebook, on the site God wants you to know, it could on Joel Osteen, Joyce Meyer or The Game. God has spoke to me so much that I am clear he is speaking to me. You see we need to get off of our butts, for real, and starting trusting the more. Now, this is my revelation today and I am going to share it with you. As I started reading, the bible everyday this year it has become clear that there is nothing new under the sun. I am in the book of Genesis in the Old Testament (ya'll knew that though. Right?) and Matthew in the New. And from the very beginning folk is going through stuff.

Now today I don't have to go lay a sacrificial lamb at the altar kill it cook it or poor the blood anywhere, all I have to do is TRUST God. Accept Jesus as my personal savior and believe that he has died for me. Now, this may not be for you, however please read on.  I am tired of struggling with am I good enough.

But, Lord you know my issues can you still use me?

But, Lord, I am not perfect and I want to wait until all this STUFF (Sin turning us from fear to failure) is behind me.

But, I cannot write, but I cannot communicate, but I cannot stop whatever I am doing.

I saw a post this week, and I am going to include it at the end. I am walking towards the Glory of God with boldness no longer will I let my mind hold me back.

No buts, just what.  What will you have me to do Lord? I hear the voice of the Lord saying to me. What is this thing that you have going on that I cannot care for?

So What if you drink? Come to me and I will quench your thirst? So what if you smoke? I cared for Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego and they were smokey but they did not burn. So, what if you cannot communicate. The Holy Spirit has come to give you words of comfort and knowledge. I used Moses and he stuttered.  God knew you before you where in your mothers womb he knows all about you. Do NOT miss your blessing waiting to get right to come to God. Come to God and he will make it all right.

God wants us to come to him, no ifs ands or buts about it. God has kept me all this time in my mess. I need to stop focusing on my limitations and follow his commands. Which I do daily (or try my very best) then why do I worry. I love the Lord he heard my cry. 

I can tell you some things that God has done for me. Things I have witnessed with my own eyes. I know he has changed my life and is changing me daily. I hear his voice, and see his wondrous works. He and only he knows my heart and hear my prayers and cries at night and in the morning has provided an answer that no man could have ever known about. I am telling you what I know NOT what I heard. God is good and he is good all the time. So my sisters and hopefully my brothers. Be encouraged and do not get weary in well doing. We are not perfect people and we will never be sinless.

However,.....(see I did not use but)  we should be sinning less. I love you guys and I thank you for reading my babbles.

Here is a true statement see it for yourself or should I say read it. It is from a great book and the storyline does not change, but it gets better. I took this from my girl La Savine's post on Facebook. It is so true.

The next time you feel like GOD can’t use you, just remember
Noah was a drunk, Abraham was too old, Jacob was a liar, Leah was ugly
Rahab was a prostitute, David had an affair and was a murderer, Job went bankrupt
Peter denied Christ , Zaccheus was too small AND Lazarus was dead! No more excuses! God can use you to your full potential.

BUT WHAT?

WHO LOVES YA! WOMEN EMPOWERED CROSS N PATHS

LETTING GO FEAR- FALSE EVIDENCE APPEARING REAL!

When I read many years ago Joyce Meyers book "Battlefield of the Mind", I was amazed and glad to know that I was not crazy. It is not just happening to me. The thoughts, the fears, the negative thinking. I know who and whose I am but why do we slip back into our minds of disbelief. I have been battling with my mind all week. Now, I am going to say the obvious....I need to get my A out the house. LOL. But, really how many of us go through where we feel defeated, worthless, nothing right is happening for me? It all starts in the mind. I am so glad that I serve a mighty God, I am glad that I can look back on my life today with recall and say God has been mighty good to me. I am attempting to read the bible in 365 days. I said I wanted to do that this year, well I went to my book rack and there was a book The Bible in 365 days NIV version. I had never even cracked it open. Where did it come from? God will make a way out of no way! There are many things that we do and we do not know the reason, but for such a time as this. I woke up this morning to this article by Jillian Michaels and I thought I would share it with you. Although I have my oWn battles on this week, I have taken the time to listen to others (I really don't have any complaints), I have encouraged them because by nature I am an encourager and I realize that. I too am more than a conqueror. You see God has delivered me from abuse, addiction and has given me an awakening. WE must take time to remember whose we are. I needed this week of reflection I could have done without the pity party, but even in that I still got the last dance.  This article spoke to me, I hope it speaks to you wherever your need is. This is a place where we can speak to, and be real with each other. Who loves ya! WE do!

1. Fear of Change
The first hurdle to get over is the soul-crushing fear of change. It can keep you stuck in a dead-end job, a bad relationship, or self-destructive behavior patterns. When it comes to building a better and healthier life, people who are wary of making changes must be EXTRA careful not to sabotage their own efforts. If you’re not satisfied with the way things are, you have to kick your own butt into gear and make CHANGES because, you know what? The only thing that’s holding you back from achieving your dreams is YOU. So be brave, believe in yourself, and stop letting your excuses keep you from getting what you want out of life!

2. Fear of the Unknown and Untried
Think about something you NEVER thought you could do — skydiving, skiing, surfing, public speaking, burlesque dancing — and do it! The best way to conquer your fear of the unknown is to get out there, try it, and survive it. (Don’t do anything unsafe. If it’s an activity that requires training, get guidance from a qualified professional.) How can you tackle this fear? Make your mind work FOR you. Think rationally and VISUALIZE your success. Conquering your fear of the unknown will give you confidence to bust out your other goals.

3. Fear of Screwing Up
Don’t be afraid of making mistakes along the way. Accept that you are going to screw up, and know that it doesn’t mean all your efforts are out the window. When you’re on a journey toward change, you have to lose the all-or-nothing, perfectionist attitude, and ALLOW for setbacks. You can’t let procrastination get in your way either. Putting off working out or eating better isn’t going to cut it. You need to address the fear that’s causing you to procrastinate. If you’re stuck or feeling discouraged, break your big goals down into mini-goals and take pride in your small successes along the way.

4. Fear of Letting People Down
Do you sacrifice your own needs to do things for others? Are you likely to bust your butt working overtime for your boss or spend an hour listening to your friend complain about her problems, rather than focusing on your own life? If so, you’re suffering from “people pleaser” behavior, and you need to get OVER it and start prioritizing! Whenever you feel compelled to do something for someone else, ask yourself: Do I REALLY want to do this? Do I even have time? If it’s going to stress you out or mess with your own goals, drop it. Make a polite excuse, and focus on YOURSELF instead.

5. Fear of Success
Are you ever afraid that even if you accomplish your goals, you still won’t be satisfied, or that people will expect more from you? Are you worried you won’t be able to sustain your progress, or worse, that deep down you don’t deserve success? Negative thinking like this is a surefire way to sabotage your efforts, so CHANGE your attitude. Trust me, life is always a work in progress. But one success leads to another, and that’s a GOOD thing. The work you’re doing is 100 percent WORTH it, so keep it up, rock star!

Remember, it’s okay to feel fear, but don’t let it stop you! You can power through those fear roadblocks and move forward to reach your goals. It’s time to turn “I can’t” into “I can”!

LET'S TALK ABOUT SEX BABY! WELL NOT REALLY.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ydrtF45-y-g

MY GIRLFRIEND POSTED THIS AND I WOULD LIKE TO KNOW HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT IT.

Maybe we should come to the realization that men are polygamist by nature and maybe so many of us would stop feeling bad about ourselves and know that their isnt anything we can do about it, and maybe it wont hurt so bad, and that would explain their doggishness as we see it, And maybe just maybe their would be somebody for everybody.

NOW I FOR ONE HAVE BEEN CELIBATE FOR 4 YEARS BECAUSE I REFUSE TO LAY WITH ANYONE THAT IS LAYING WITH SOMEONE ELSE. I have played many games in my life but today I realize my self worth. The only thing I am willing to share is my lunch. (I can stand to lose a pound or two).

If WE allow men to step to us with the same OLE lines and we continue to believe that once we get them we are going to be that one! YOU know the one he falls for hard, the one that he is going to do right by, the one who will change him. WRONG AGAIN. So, let's talk about this.

Are there good men left? What should WE be doing? Right now I am taking care of me, my man will find me when the time is right.

WHAT SAY YOU!......(SALT AND PEPPER IS SINGING IN THE BACKGROUND)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ydrtF45-y-g

2011 BEING OUR BEST FORGETTING THE REST!

2011, wow! Time flies when you are having fun. 2011  a new year, and time for new beginnings. We must leave the old things behind - stretch beyond our comfort zones and realize change.

I am committed to stop the negative talk. I have asked God to speak to me when I am about to do or say something negative. I actually stop lean my head to the side and I listen. My daughter asked me the other day mom what are you doing (I was about to cuss her out. Well not really. Yeah I was) and I explained "I am listening to God speak to me."  This is working for me, and I pray that by the end of the year God has made significant change in my life.

This is personal for me. I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. I know that I am able to do all things through Christ Jesus who strengthens me. I want to help my sisters who struggle with low or no self esteem. Who are being abused both mentally and physically.
Who have become accustomed to abusing themselves. Sisters now is the time for all  women who have overcome to help our sisters who need to come over.

WE must love each other, WE must learn to love ourselves. Have you reached out to help someone today or have you just thought about yourself?

Today I am reaching out to you. Make it a great day!